Fic - Heartbeat

[branwen_blaidd]

Title: Heartbeat
Pairing: Jack/Ianto
Ratings: PG
Spoilers: General Series 1 and 2
Summary: I listen to your heartbeat and wish you were mine.
Disclaimers: I own nothing!
Notes: Comments please!

 

I listen to your heartbeat and wish you were mine.

I can't keep you, no matter what I do. One day you will leave to him, to the one you believe in. I cannot keep you.

We lie together in our bed. I don't know when it became ours, not just a place to sleep, to be alone. Instead it is now a place to have and to hold and to love. It is ours.

But you are not mine. I've been given miracles I did not wish for but the simplest of all things, having an ordinary life with you, I am to be denied.

You are beautiful when you sleep. You are peaceful, young and you have no worries. I wish I could always keep the frown from your face.

I kiss your soft cheek and feel your warmth. My hand takes its place on your chest, feeling your heart work beneath your flesh. It is a lullaby to me, the steady thudding of your life. It comforts me like nothing else.

I would be alone but for you. I don't think you even realise it. You saved me, showed me my loneliness and healed me. It sounds trite and sentimental but it is true. I don't know how you did it, that I was even so damaged but you showed me. You made me better.

You turn into my embrace, half awake. I nuzzle into your warmth, stroke your cheek, your hair, your bare chest. I don't want you to wake, not yet. You get so much peace in your sleep. I want sleep too, that peace with you in my arms. I want to hold onto it for as long as it lasts. I want to hold onto you, my boy, until your God takes you away from me.

I press my cheek to your chest and feel your breathing against my skin. You are mine, at least until your final rest.

Comments

[toshiani007.livejournal.com]

Brilliant, loved it!!!

[thrace-adams.livejournal.com]

Oh lovely but very melancholy. Well done.

[pinkmandy07.livejournal.com]

brillant will u be still doing some sexy ones

[bk_forever]

So bittersweet. I love how Jack just wants to holdon to Ianto as long as possible, knowing that he'll lose him one day when Ianto goes where Jack can't follow.

[nikki-b1.livejournal.com]

Wow! That was so beautiful. So poetic. And so heartbreaking.

Love Nikki!

[bluelilacs.livejournal.com]

Very touching how Jack sees Ianto as a gift he's been given, while at the same time knowing he can't keep him. I wonder if they know that they both lie awake at night sometimes, just watching the other sleep.

[deepsorskies.livejournal.com]

That was brilliant! You so got me. I kept thinking it was Ianto's PoV until the last line. Then I was confused. Then I thought: Oh ... OH! Then I had to read it again. - As I said: brilliant.

[lilferret]

So pretty.