Fic- You

[branwen_blaidd]

Title: You

Pairing: Jack/Ianto

Rating: Teen- implied adult situation
Spoilers: Up to Kiss Kiss Bang Bang

Summary: Set from after the End of Days to the end of Kiss Kiss Bang Bang, Ianto thinks about Jack.

Disclaimers: I own nothing.

Notes: Comments please!

 

I hear you, voice quivering in my ear. But it is not here.

I smell you, the deep erotic scent of your body clinging to your bed. But it is not here.

I taste you, your mouth pressing fiery kisses to my lips. But it is not here.

I feel you in the stillness, soft fingers caressing my face. But they are not here.

I see you, your eyes shining in the darkness. But they are not here.

You are not here.

You are with him.

Bitterness chokes me and I want to cry. You are with him.

But I don’t. I am empty. I have no tears left to release into your pillow.

You are with him. He left you. He abandoned you. But you are with him. You are not here.

I want you here. I need you. You.

I want you to wrap your arms around me and hold me tight. I want to feel you loving me but I know I can’t have that. You cannot give me that.

I am alone here. I’ve felt alone for such a long time. Even when you were here, I knew you wanted to be with him. I knew you’d leave with him one day. I always knew.

I want your soft words, your gentle caresses. I want you here. I want you now. You feel far away. Will you ever come back? Perhaps I could have a little more time with you. Perhaps you’ll let me.

Ianto

I hear you whisper my name, soft breath brushing my cheek. I want it to be real. I want it so much. I want you so much.

I imagine I can feel you with me. It’s almost real. I close my eyes and imagine I can feel you close to me, feel your breath hot on my face. Is it real?

You’re with him. You’re going back to him. You’ll always go back to him. It’s him you want, only him.

He didn’t want you. He sent you back. You will not give him up for me. I know it.

I came back for you

Your whisper is real. Over and over you say it, pressing soft kisses to my face. I came back for you.

You hear me, pressing your ear to my chest to hear my heartbeat.

You smell me, burying your face in my neck and breathing deep.

You taste me, kissing me sweetly on my lips.

You feel me, brushing my fingers through your hair.

You see me, lying here with you in the darkness.

You hold me close.

Ianto, my Ianto. I’m not leaving.

You are here. I am here. He is not here.

We are here, together.